Missing him...

I miss my husband. I am so done with this deployment. The holidays are making this so much harder. I can't stand it. It is our first Thanksgiving/Christmas/New Years apart. It's more than I can take at times. And to make it worse we have little man. If it was just me missing him it wouldn't be this bad, but knowing that my son is wondering where his Daddy is just kills me. I want him here to hold me and make me smile. That's all...