The Norm...

Since when did the normal life become centered around drugs? Since when did the norm become having at least one, if not more, people in your life addicted? Since when did it become the norm for a mother to choose drugs over their own child? Since when did the norm become watching the sweet child that you raised  turn into someone you don't recognize? I become more and more afraid of the world that my son is going to grow up in with each passing breath. I can't imagine a day where he wouldn't be the most important thing in my life, or the day that he would turn his back on me. Why do people choose to have their lives dictated by something that harms so many? Drugs not only affect you, they affect everyone in your life. It's selfish and weak. Why do so many people help out the people who do this stuff? Don't you see that you are just as bad as they are for enabling them to be like this? Don't you see that you are part of the problem? I am so fed up with having drugs invade my life. I am not the one doing them, I did not choose to have this drama and I certainly did not want to have my life tainted by this. I have a wonderful life. I can't imagine how life could get any better than being perfectly content with sitting on the couch with my family listening to my son read Cat in the Hat or watching Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer. If that seems like a boring life to some then so be it, but my actions and my life aren't ruining the lives of everyone around me. I don't want to sit up at night and wonder if my loved ones are okay. Or wonder if they are finally getting caught. I don't want to have to see people I love go through hell. I don't want to look at them and see the shell of who they used to be. And I am so tired of feeling like a horrible person because I don't put up with the drama that comes with this. But that doesn't mean that I don't love them, it doesn't mean that I don't care about them, it just means that I'm not going to take part in being another person in their lives who pretends that they are okay. If that makes them think that I don't care then that says more about them than me I think. If that makes me seem like an unfeeling bitch then they don't know me at all. I would do anything for the people I love, but the one thing I will not do is enable them. But what bothers me the most is watching the people in my life be hurt by this. They didn't choose to have this invade their lives. I hate that there is nothing I can do to help them deal with this. If they think that love means being ignorant to what is right happening right in front of them then that is on them, not me. But I can tell you one thing, I am going to do everything I can to shield my son from this life. I don't care what it costs me. I can't picture him becoming another faceless drug addict. I can't picture me burying him one day because he got in over his head. I can't picture me having to visit him through bars. I never quite understood what women say when they say that there is no love as amazing as the love you have for your child, until I had little Bruce. I just pray that there comes a day when the town of Rogersville isn't known for the drugs and the drug addicts that reside there. It's not the world I want my son to grow up in. I hate reading the paper and being able to say that I know at least 2-3 of the people in the ARRESTED/WANTED section.

I guess that is about all I needed to say. I haven't blogged since July, but this is the only way for me to express what is on my mind to night. Prayer is a powerful thing and I just wanted to ask if you could please keep me and anyone else involved in a situation like this in your prayers. It's sad to say that I am pretty sure that the majority of people who read this will be able to relate. And if you are one of those people who relate to this then I am so sorry and you will be in my prayers.

BB & HP

What an incredible few days. First of all, I now have a new child to take care of during the day. His name is Charlie and he just turned one. I'm so happy that little man will have another boy to play with here at the house. He is being overrun by girls! He came out of Cassidy's room one day with blush and a necklace on. Yeah, we REALLY need more boys around this house. But I am so grateful for the children that have come into my life, both old and new. They all fit here so well and I can't imagine life without them.

On a more sad note, Bruce got laid off at Old Dominion. We knew this was a possibility when he got the job since the trucking industry is so fickle and he has never worked on fork lifts, but having that job the past few months was such a blessing and now we are moving onto something else. He already has 3 interviews! I am so proud of him. But obviously God has other plans for our family and we are excited to see where he is leading us.

On a bittersweet note, LITTLE BRUCE IS TURNING TWO! AHH!! I can't believe that this is happening. It seems like he was just born yesterday. I feel like time is flying by and I can't do anything to slow it down so I can enjoy this age just a little bit longer. He is the sweetest little boy. I couldn't ask for a better son. I am so happy that we are going to be able to celebrate his birthday with all of our family here in Tennessee. Last year was so hard because all of our family was back in Tennessee, with the exception of Lisa, Mark and Ricky.

But I do have a prayer request. Ricky's girlfriend, Brittny, lost her grandfather yesterday (Tuesday). She was very close with him and her family is going through a very rough time. Please just keep them in your prayers.

Now onto the entertainment portion of my blog:

IT'S BIG BROTHER TIME!!! To most people summer means the beach, cookouts and etc...But to me and my mom, it's means Big Brother on CBS. They announced a few weeks ago that 6 old houseguests would be returning and we were praying that one of them would be Evel Dick. And then premiere night came and our wish came true. He walked through those doors and we lost it. We even posted a video on Facebook! He is our all time favorite houseguest. But then we found out that within a week of the game starting he had to leave. From what I have read he had a friend who needed him. I'm assuming he was hurt or sick, but whatever the case may be I just hope that everything turned out for the best. I will for sure miss him this season, but I hope that he will be back on another season.

The final Harry Potter is coming out Friday. I can't even explain how that makes me feel. I have been reading these book since middle school! And on Friday it's over, done, finished, no more! It's been such an incredible ride though.

Outnumbered...

I can't believe that I haven't posted in almost a month. Actually, it will be one month as of tomorrow. I have been so busy. Between being a mommy, watching Ally and having Cassidy get out of school I feel like I am constantly out numbered by little people. But I do enjoy it.

I spent this past week working on Cassidy's room and I am happy to say that it is finally done. She has the cutest girly room! I love it!  The picture doesn't include all of the stuff. I added a few things since I took that picture. There is now a tree above the desk, mirrored butterflies around her name and there are framed Barbie pictures on the wall next to the bed (not pictured). It really does my heart good to do this stuff for her. I love her more than I could have ever imagined.

Little Bruce is repeating everything we say. He is making sentences and everything. I can't believe how much he has changed this past month. Heck, he's changed a great deal this past week! His newest thing is saying "Ready, set, go" and then taking off running. It's adorable! His birthday is next month! Yikes! His party is going to be so awesome this year because we will have family there. I feel so blessed to be able to have them all there for him. Mark has been redoing the back porch and he has been a huge help to him. It's so adorable! He is such a cute little boy and so smart.

Couponing has been awesome this past month. We have such an awesome little stockpile going and it's been such an awesome hobby. The only sucky part is actually cutting the coupons. UGH! I could do without that.

I have really got to make more of an effort to hang out with people that I am not related to and that are my age. I feel like I don't get out and do things with friends much anymore. In San Diego that was all I ever did, but now that I am home I find myself very isolated from other people as far as friends go. Another thing is that I have got to get little Bruce away from all these girls he hangs out with and around some boys. He is around dolls and stuff to much. He took a fairy wand into Wal-Mart and I said that that was just weird and Cassidy proceeded to tell me that he was a "man fairy". Oh my gosh! HELP! But he also a very manly guy when it comes to most stuff. Always copying his Daddy and Papaws.

Well that is about it for me tonight. I am going to go hit the sheets and get some rest. I'm so exhausted from the past week. But I am so looking forward to next week, Ally comes back and I have no big "jobs" to do. It's back to normal for me!

A wine kind of night...

So, my binder has arrived. It took me almost 5 hour to get all of my stuff in it and organized. But I have to admit, I really enjoyed it. I was amazed at how many coupons that I had at that point. Now I've more than doubled my amount. My Dad gave me all of his extras, Lisa's coworkers gave her theirs and we have another set to go through. Then it all starts over again next week. It's a ridiculous cycle!

Life has been rough the past week. I feel like I can't get ahead or do anything right. I can't really explain it, but I just feel worn out. I hope it's all over soon, I am tired of feeling like crap all of the time. I need to figure out what to do to fix this or hopefully it fixes itself.

This is a short blog, I just needed to get that off my chest.

Easter, Couponing and Royalty!

Whew...both Bruce and I have had major changes to our work schedules. He now works night shifts and I now have a different schedule with Ally which isn't a bad thing. We are pretty much set into our new schedules and it's been working out pretty good.

Easter was amazing! We had such a good morning at church and little man looked so cute all dressed up in his suit. After church it was time for him to nap and it was time for me to get to work on dinner. I made a honey glazed ham, baked mac and cheese, deviled eggs and rolls. Lisa made veggies and potatoes.

Little man did so awesome when it was time to hunt for eggs. He wanted to carry his basket all over and put them in there himself. He found 29 eggs! We were so proud of him.

He is so talkative now. Well, he's always been talkative. But now he is saying EVERYTHING! It has been so amazing to watch him grow up so much these past few weeks so much. He changes on a day to day basis. I feel like time is moving by so quickly and I wish I could just pause it so I can enjoy this time more.

Anyways, I've been couponing! I am on my way to becoming a crazy coupon lady! So far I've racked up a good amount of loot. I've gotten over $80 in free body wash, $10 in deodorant, $8 in floss and $12 in personal stuff.

I have ordered a binder to get it all organized and it should be here tomorrow and I'm so excited to get all of my coupons in order and grow my collection so I can really start racking up the savings. I don't make a ton of money babysitting, but with what I am saving in groceries and personal items it is helping to even out the amount that both Bruce and I contribute to our family.

And tomorrow is going to be so amazing! Tomorrow is the wedding of Prince William and Catherine Middleton! I am so excited! It's just so awesome that I get to see such an amazing event happen. I wasn't alive when Charles and Diana got married, but I am so excited to be able to watch their son wed. It's the stuff of fairy tales and I know that a lot of people don't see the reason behind all of the excitement. But I do, it's just so amazing to know that there are still kings, queens, princes and princesses. And to know that a regular girl can grow up and become a real life princess and eventually queen. It's what every little girl dreams of growing up. So, tomorrow is the big day and I am going to be here watch every minute of it with my little prince. And I know that there are all sort of matters that are more important than a wedding, but for those of us who still believe in fairy tales this is an amazing event.

Anyways, I'm going to wrap this up so I can watch the Lifetime movie William and Kate and then go to bed.

Work, work, work...

It feels like it has been forever since I have blogged. But here I am. That past two weeks have been very busy. Bruce is now working at Old Dominion and is loving his new job. I started watching a little girl named Ally. She is 3 and I couldn't ask for a better little girl to take care of. Little Bruce is saying everything now. And when I say everything, I mean everything. If you can say it, so can he. But he is still as stubborn as ever. He is the perfect mesh of the two of us. He has our stubbornness, my pickyness, my cleanliness, Bruce's ability to play for hours and hours without stop. He is just the best little boy.

We are just trying to get adjusted to being here and our new life. But sometime next year we will be moving closer to Bruce's work in White Pine, TN. But until then, this is our home.

I've been coming to terms that San Diego isn't home anymore. I won't ever see those places again and I won't be living that life anymore. It sucks, but at the same time I know that this is where we are meant to be.

I had the pleasure of working at the Clothing Carousel yesterday and I have to say that it was awesome. Since I volunteered to work I got to go to the preview party and we got such awesome stuff for little man. And working the sale on Saturday was fun. I love feeling like I accomplish something every day. Whether it is doing laundry, cleaning, working, etc... I just sleep better and feel good when I know that I did something productive at the end of the day.

I also have special request, if everyone who reads this could please say a prayer for the Arrechaga family. They lost their solider in Afghanistan this past week. He was a husband, a father, a son and a brother. So, if you could just pray for God to give them peace during this horrible time.

Like father, like son? Like mother, like son?

This week has been so amazing! Bruce has a job interview on Tuesday and we are so excited! He has been going crazy just being here at the house and not working. But we all really needed this time together. We have missed being a family so much. It's still super weird that we are living in Rogersville. Bruce said that he is used to it already, but for some reason I'm not. I still feel like this isn't my home yet. And I'm not talking about the house I live in, I'm talking about the town. But hopefully it will fade soon. But I am really missing the isolation that we had in San Diego. We didn't have to worry about anyone but ourselves. I know that sounds selfish, but that is how we have lived for the past 3 years. The job that Bruce is interviewing for is about 40 minutes away so once we get settled as far as him working and things like that we would be moving to Morristown probably. And that is a good thing because I still get to be around family and stuff, but I won't be in the same town so I will have a little bit of space.

Anyways, little Bruce has been doing so much more stuff. He says all kinds of new words and it's so cute! He is just the funniest little guy. He is trying to be just like his Daddy. He copies everything that he does! It's adorable! But I am happy to say that he is just like me in a lot of ways. He is very particular. He doesn't like it when you do things for him if he knows that he can do it. He won't eat something if you rip it, you have to cut it. He likes to pick up his messes and put away his toys. He likes his stuff put a certain way when you put it up also. He likes to sweep, wipe tables, vacuum, etc... So in all of those ways he is just like his Mommy.

Today has been relaxing. It's my last Sunday of staying home while everyone is at church. I will start going with Bruce and little Bruce next Sunday. We will be going to a different church than our families do. We are going to Hope. It's the church we went to before we left Rogersville and it's more like our church out in San Diego which we miss a lot. I'm excited to start going back though. I've really enjoyed my alone time on Sundays, but I need to be back in church.

Anyways, that is about it for now. I'm going to relax for another minute or two until everyone gets home.

One week has gone by...

Bruce has officially been home for a week now and life couldn't be any better. We are loving this little mini vacation we are having and loving that we don't have to follow any Navy rules anymore. So, Bruce is growing facial hair for the first time. I'm not entirely sure if I am going to like it, but I do like what it looks like now. It's just rough.

Little Bruce is such a cute little mini Bruce. He does everything that his daddy does. It's adorable. He still doesn't like to have him out of his sight.

Our furniture got here on Friday and we spent the entire weekend going through our stuff trying to get what we need to have with us. I think that we are both still wiped from it. But I am happy to say that we are done with moving stuff and have our two little rooms all ready and it feels a little more like home now.

We went on a double date for the first time in what seems like a lifetime. It was with Ricky and Brittny. We went to Ruby Tuesdays and to see the movie "Just Go With It". It was so nice to just go out and relax. I always hated leaving little Bruce with babysitters, but leaving him with family feels different. I don't feel so guilty about it.

Next week Bruce is starting his job hunt and once he gets that all worked out I will start babysitting kids here at the house. And I know most people hate working, but I am super excited to be contributing to our house income again. I love being a stay at home mom and at this point I don't think that I could go to work a regular job and leave him. I have been with him almost every second of his life.

Anyways, I'm going to relax while Bruce is at the gym!

Bruce is home!

Bruce is home! Finally! I still don't feel like it is real. I am so happy to have my little family back together. He left San Diego on Saturday morning and got here a little after 5 on Monday afternoon. We had the house all ready for him and we were all on pin and needles waiting for him to get here. I got so impatient and I snuck into our new bedroom and sat in front of the window so I could see him as soon as he drove down the street. As soon as I seen our little green booger I screamed and took off running to the living room. He came into the room and little man just stood there. He didn't know what to do. He finally said Daddy and Bruce went to him. Little man wouldn't take his eyes off of him for the longest time. He was so happy to be with his Daddy again. Next it was my turn, I was just so happy to have him home and with little Bruce and I. Once I let go and he put little man down Cassidy jumped at him and started to bawl. She loves her cousin Bruce so much. She missed him like crazy! She hadn't seen him since last April. It's been almost a year. Lisa was finally able to hug him after that.

Little Bruce took Bruce into his room to show it off and then they went to Cassidy's room. We just spend the evening having dinner and playing. Bruce needed some jammies so we all loaded up and headed to Wal-Mart. After that it was time to put the kiddos to bed and for us to relax for a little while.

I am just so incredibly happy to have my family all together again.

Busy, busy, busy...

Wow! It seems like it's been forever since I posted my last blog. But anyways, onto the important stuff...

Bruce is officially no longer a sailor in the United States Navy. We are so happy that he will be home next weekend. I can't believe it. We won't ever have to be apart as a family again. The movers are coming to pack up  our stuff on the 25th and Bruce is hitting the road on the 26th. Yay!

Today was Mark's 51st birthday and it was such a busy day. It started off with me making cupcakes for his party tonight. I made golf themed ones. It was so much fun. Then once they were home from church and the kids were down for their naps, Lisa and I got started on sanding down the joints in her bedroom in preparation for painting. We were covered in dust! Ugh! A shower was a must at this point. I showered and got ready for the party and it was so much fun. All the boys were here, minus Bruce.

After the party ended it was time to give the kids a bath and put them to bed. Lisa and I got started on cleaning up the sanding dust and then we got the primer on the wall. We are freaking exhausted. Tomorrow we are painting and then we will be done with her room. Next is the master bathroom and then we are going to do the guest bathroom and then finally the kitchen and finishing the hallway.

Now it's off to dreamland for me...

Progress...

Oh my gosh! I am exhausted. After a 3 day marathon of redoing little man's room we are finally done. I am exhausted. I am so excited. But he was NOT happy about not being allowed in his room for two days.While I was carrying out his toys the other day he was excited at first about having those toys in the living room, but after realizing that they were ALL out there he sat in the floor in front of his door saying "No, no, no..." and he was crying the whole time. It was pitiful. Needless to say he has been depressed all day. It has been so sad. But when he gets home tomorrow he gets to go into his new room! I can't wait to see his face!

Bruce is on his way back to the states right now! I am so excited! I hate that I won't know anything about where he is until he gets to Atlanta. I do know that he is flying through Rome though! Can we say jealous wife?! But I am so happy that he gets to at least go through Rome. That is amazing!

I have cancelled all of our services out there in San Diego (Directv, AT&T, etc...). I changed our insurance information and it lowered it $30 a month. Whoo hoo! I have put together a list of everything that Bruce has to do in order to get the move done quickly and get out of there without any issues. I am just hoping that the Navy gets their butts in gear and gets this move set up quickly. I want him home and so does Bruce Jr. I can't even imagine how little Bruce is going to react when he sees his Daddy show up here! I don't know how I am going to keep myself composed when he gets here. I am crying now just thinking about him coming home and the two of them being together again.

Well, I am off to relax and get some sleep. I am so tired!

Deployment is over!

Well, I woke up to an email on my phone from Bruce saying that he doesn't have to finish out his deployment since he is getting out. They are sending him home along with 2 or 3 other sailors that are going on home emergency leave. I am still in shock a little bit but we are so excited. He will be home in San Diego next week and from there he will have to take a class about living in the "civilian world" and then we are hoping that he can get the move set up quickly and once our house is all taken care of and his keys turned in then he will be driving to Tennessee.

Sadly I will NOT be returning to San Diego. It is killing me that I will not be able to say goodbye to my friends. I can't believe that I won't see them anymore. But it is what is best for our family. But there is an upside, Alicia, Rob and Chase are moving to Norfolk this year so we will be able to see them.

I am still in shock over all of this. I can't wrap my head around the fact that I won't be back in San Diego. I won't ever be in that house again. I won't go to the Mission Valley mall again, Chevy's, etc...

I am just so glad that this is going to be over soon. We will be together in Tennessee and we won't ever have to be apart again. I couldn't be more excited about that.

Planes, Trains and Automobiles...

I am so exhausted! I've had a cold for a few days and my cold symptoms aren't that bad, but the cold itself has been sucking up all of my energy. I just can't get up energy to do anything.

Anyways, I got little man his big boy bedding. It has trains, cars, planes and boats on it. It's adorable! I got it for a little over $40 at a consignment store. I went home and looked up the bedding and oh my gosh! I got an incredible deal. If I were to buy that bedding at full price it would all cost over $400! I can't believe this! It came with the bumper, comforter, mobile, valance, light switch cover, socket covers, lamp shade and a bed skirt. When we put him in his toddler bed we are going to sell the bumper and mobile. He loves the stuff! When he seen it he just kept saying "Wow! Wow!" It was adorable! When I go to get him up from his nap and in the morning he doesn't want to leave his crib. That just makes me so happy that I found that stuff!

Seeing how Thanksgiving and Christmas completely destroyed my diet and exercise routine I am going to start the Special K diet tomorrow. I am so freaking excited!

Returning to Tennessee!

So much has been going on since my last post!

First of all, Bruce is getting out of the Navy. We just decided that it was best to not reenlist. We will be home sometime this summer and we couldn't be happier. Yes, it will be harder to live here on our own, but it will be better for us. Little man will grow up around his family and I couldn't be happier about that. My Dad and I are still going to San Diego and get our affairs in order and once Bruce gets home from deployment we will set up the move and head to Rogersville!

But on the other hand, I can't believe we are leaving our life in San Diego. I am going to miss our friends so much. Alicia Holmes, Andrea Gritzinger, Taylor Montoya and Shaela Kilgore. And we have already lost so many friends due to them being transferred. It's just so hard. But it's nice to know that I will be able to have my friends here and know that I will have them the rest of my life and we won't have to say goodbye.

Ugh! When I think about all of the stuff that we are going to have to do over the next few months it kind of makes my head spin a little.

Sick and twigs...

I have been randomly sick since yesterday afternoon and I'm finally starting to feel better. I have no idea why I got sick, but I could not keep anything down. I felt horrible. I had horrible body aches and could barely sleep because my body couldn't get comfortable. But the worst part about being sick was not being able to see little Bruce. I hated it. But seeing his little face when I came out of my room today was amazing. I had missed him so much.

We had such a good afternoon though. My Dad came over this morning to watch him so I could try to rest, but after nap time I was feeling good. My only issue was the body aches. Those are the worst. But now I am 100% better.

Being sick made me really miss Bruce so before bedtime I broke out the home movie I brought with me so we could watch big Bruce. It was so cute! Little man just sat and started at the tv. He misses his Daddy so much. I had to pause it for something and he got super sad because he didn't want it to stop playing. I can't wait until the two of them can be together again.

When it was time to go to bed I kept hearing this scraping noise coming from a window in my room. It was so annoying. So here I am at 11:30 at night in my jammies going outside with a flashlight and scissors to cut off these little twigs or whatever they were from this tree thing. But I got the job done! That is another thing that really makes me miss Bruce. I wouldn't even have to ask Bruce to go take care of that, he would have just done it for me. I miss having him around.

I love you Bruce...

Awkward!

I had such a good day today. My Dad and I went to Kingsport to the mall and to see a movie and have dinner. We got to the mall a little before 12:00 and found out that the stores don't open until 1:00. So we just bought our movie tickets and walked around the mall until 1:20. And let me tell you this, Black Swan was not a movie I should have seen with my Dad. Oh my gosh! There was a lot of girl on girl and girls touching themselves. Oh my! It was so uncomfortable to sit next to my Dad and watch all of this. It was so weird.

After the movie we headed to Texas Roadhouse. We had an awesome dinner except for the fact that they ran out of Coors Light, so my Dad had to settle for Miller Light. HA HA

We headed back to Rogersville just in time for my little man to get home. I missed him so much. But tomorrow he is all mine! I am not letting out of my sight! I love that little guy!

Changes...

Well, I'll start off this blog with yesterdays events. Friday was a girls night for Cassidy and I. I picked her up from school, went to drop off little Bruce at my Mom's house for the night and then brought Cassidy home to relax until it was time for dinner. We went to Peking for dinner and she ate so well. I swear, she is so finicky about food. Some days she can eat a lot and some days she just pecks at her food. But she ate a whole plate of food and then a whole plate of dessert. After dinner we went to Food City to get some oranges and some ice cream for our movie. We go home and put on our facial masks and watched Toy Story 3. We had such an awesome night and I can't wait to do it again.

Today was so incredibly busy! After we got up we went to get Cassidy's hair trimmed and then we headed to Morristown for a few things. We ate lunch at Subway and then ran into the mall for a minute. When we got back to Rogersville we picked up little Bruce from my Moms and then we went to Wal-Mart for a minute and then it was back to the house. Ricky had moved all of his stuff out so it was time to get to work on moving me into his old room and Cassidy into my old room. Oh my gosh! It is 9:30 and we are all just now finishing up getting everything done. But I love my new room and Cassidy is loving being a big girl sleeping in her own room. It's so cute!

Tomorrow little Bruce is spending the day with my Mom and I am hanging out with my Dad we are going to lunch and to see Black Swan! I am so freaking excited!

Snowed in!

Snow, snow and more snow! I love it. But if I had to go out in it I am sure I would not be happy about it. But seeing as how I am stuck at the house while it snows, I am rather enjoying it. School was out today so Cassidy was here with me and little man. We had such a good morning, but nap time couldn't come quick enough. I had every intention of sleeping during nap time, but I ended up cleaning instead. Stupid choice on my part. I am exhausted. I slept horribly last night. Hopefully I sleep better tonight. After they got up they played and I got to work on dinner. I made lasagna and I as so excited. I have really been missing my own cooking so I am making dinner all this week. I can't cook much stuff, but apparently what I can cook is rather good.

Everyday it is becoming more and more real that I will be home soon. I still have over two months, but knowing that it is almost time to go home means that I am closer to seeing my husband. I miss him so much. I was feeling a lot better today about being apart. The past week or so has been really hard on me, I have been really missing Bruce and having some rough nights. But today I just felt like my usual self, well as normal as I can be with Bruce deployed.

Crazy Daisies!

Today was such an awesome day! It started off with some Mommy time which was amazing. I watched The Tudors and took a shower and got ready for the day. Then once everyone got home from church I fed little man lunch and then put him down for a nap. I went to my room until he got up and watched some more of The Tudors. I am finally finished with the first two seasons. Even though I've seen all of them, it's so awesome to watch the whole series again. It has to be one of my favorites shows ever.

Once the kids were up we loaded up and headed to the grocery store. And let me tell you, Food City buggies suck when you have a little one with you. He could reach everything in the buggie. The next thing I knew he had thrown blueberries in the floor, poptarts, sausage, etc... It was crazy! We had to get another buggie. One for groceries and one for Bruce and the purses and coats.

I got myself some crazy daisies to brighten up my room. I just loved having my roses in my room from Bruce, but they died. I just had to get some more flowers. It just makes my room happy!

We just spent the rest of the evening playing and just having fun. But since Cassidy got here Bruce has been around dolls and Barbies way to much! We need mud, trucks, etc... But he is still a mans man! He hs learned so much from Cassidy though. He is saying all new words and doing all new stuff. It's so awesome!

Tonight we are supposed to get a ton of snow and I am so excited! Cassidy is out of school so it will just be the three of us here tomorrow. This should be interesting.

I just really wish that Bruce was here. I miss him so much.

75 days!

Well, our return date to San Diego is set! Little man, Dad and I are heading to California on March 22nd! I can't believe it! I am so excited! And to top it all off California has lifted the freeze on home inspections for the daycares so as soon as I get home we will have our inspection. Yay! It works out so perfectly! I have loved being here in Tennessee, but I sure do miss my San Diego family and my home. Plus once I get home I don't have to long to go until I will have my husband home. I am so freaking excited!

I've also gotten a little bit of a taste as to what it is like to have a school age child. I have been taking care of Cassidy after school and helping her with her homework. It's been pretty fun. I had to take her to school this morning because they were on a two hour delay. Bruce is so loving having her here. It's so cute! She is changing him a lot too. He has grown up so much since she has been living here.

The Bestie!

For anyone who was reading to find out about court it has been postponed and I don't want to post about what is going on until a ruling has been made. But this has nothing to do with me!

Anyways, Rachael and Amelia came over today! I was so excited to see them! I have been here for over two months and this is the first time we have been able to get together. That girl is harder to get together with than any other person I know. But that is why I love her. 

She hasn't really changed much and that's good. Amelia on the other hand has grown up so much! When we were here last year she was so shy and bashful, but this time she was so energetic and talkative! It was the cutest thing ever!

Cassidy, Amelia and Bruce had so much fun together! They tore this house apart! Amelia didn't want to leave because she was having such a good time. I told her that she could come back at anytime because we are always here and would love to have them over.

Have I mentioned lately that I really miss Bruce...

2011...

It's 2011! Wow! My son has been with me through 3 different years. 2009, 2010 and now 2011! I haven't seen Bruce since last year... That makes me sad. Lately this has been really hard on me. I've had a lot going on and I really just wanted Bruce around to talk to and make it better. I am so ready to have him home and have our little family back together.

We celebrating New Years at around 3 with little man and he had so much fun. He threw torn up paper and had a blast!

Anyways, Friday little man went to spend the night at my Moms house and then I went to get him early on Saturday because he had been fussy all morning. I picked him up and I think it was just a mixture of teething and missing his mommy. After we got home and he napped we went to the Morristown mall to let him and Cassidy play at the little play area and to just get out of the house. I got a bunch of stuff for Bruce's January care package and then we went to Ihop for dinner. We were there over an hour waiting on our food. It was ridiculous! On the way home it was BARELY sprinkling and Lisa had the wipers on medium-high and they were rubbing. Her and Bruce do the same thing and it ruins the wipers. I had just put new ones on the van and told her that she needed to turn them down. So, after she didn't I decided to punish her (and everyone else in the vehicle) by singing "The song that never ends" the entire way home! By the time we got home my jaw was killing me!

Then today I got to work on Bruce's January care package and it is all done finally and ready to go out in the  mail in the morning. I am so excited about this one because I could put whatever I wanted into it. The past two have been a Thanksgiving and Christmas package and this one was just a regular one. But I did dress up the box like usual. I think he is going to love this one a lot!

Cassidy left her hamster in the ball at some point and now it's lost! I am freaking out about it just popping out of no where and scaring the heck out of me. Yuck! But I hope we find it. Poor little thing...

Dear Bruce: Come home soon...I miss you...