Bowl Day!

Today was such a great day! When little man and I were up and ready we went down to my Dad's to celebrate our late Christmas. Little Bruce got such awesome stuff and I finally got my present that I had been waiting for since I got here. The entire Tudors series! LOVE! After we opened everything and played for a little while we went to Wal-Mart and then to lunch. Little man got cheese all over him! It was hilarious! Once little man went down for a nap then Dad and I watched a few special features on the DVDs and then turned it to football. We basically spent the rest of the day playing and watching the bowl games. It was such a nice and relaxing day. And to give today a perfect ending I watched the Tudors!

New Playmate!

Well, today I was able to help someone turn a bad situation into a good and healing one. I can not go into details, but it really made me so grateful that I have Bruce and Bruce Jr. We have had so much work related drama the past year and a half and I am just so grateful that this is as far as our personal drama goes. We have such a good home life and I couldn't be happier.

Anyways, Bruce's cousin Cassidy is going to be here with us for a while and little Bruce couldn't be more excited about it. He is loving having a little playmate and I just love watching the two of them together. He was chasing her around the house tonight trying to get her bracelets from her. It as adorable!

Bruce Jr. spent the day with my Mom and I missed him so much. But he had a blast and that is always great! Tomorrow we are celebrating Christmas a little late with my Dad and I'm super excited (even though I already know what he got me). I can't wait to see little man's face when he gets all of his new stuff.

Anyways, I'm off to bed!

Four years!

 Wow! I've officially been married for four years now! Bruce called me at 12:04 a.m. to wish me a happy anniversary and then when I got up for the day I had a bouquet of red and white roses next to my bed. I was so excited! I   went and got little man out of bed and played for a little while and then it was time to get ready for the day. Once little man went down for his nap Lisa and I headed to Kingsport!

We went straight to the jewelry store and after going back and forth between stores like 5 times, I finally decided on two charms for my bracelet.

I also got my nails repainted and they look fantastic! I love them! I would have kept shopping but I decided to wear leggings and that is not a good idea for shopping. They kept slipping down and it was starting to hurt. So we left to met up with Mark and little man back in Rogersville and went to dinner and to Wal-Mart. Now I'm relaxing in bed and ready for some rest!

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY HONEY! I LOVE YOU!

Sledding and Jabba the hut!

Today was a day full of snow! It was so awesome! I slept in until around 10 and then got up and came out to play with little man. Then we all decided that we were going to take little man out into the snow. Oh my gosh! It was so much fun! We went sledding which was a first for both of us and it was awesome! Lisa helped little man build a snowman, but he looked more like Jabba the hut. Mark and I had a mini snow ball fight. Even though we were stuck here at the house it was such an awesome day! We got most of the Christmas stuff down except for the tree in the living room and the ornaments and ribbon from above the kitchen cabinets.

The good part of Christmas...

Now, onto happier part of Christmas!

Little man such an awesome Christmas! Santa left him more presents than any of us bought him. Before he went to bed on Christmas Eve we baked Santa homemade cookies and left out some custard and egg nog. Then he went to bed. When he got up in the morning he freaked. He didn't know what to do with all of his new toys. He got a Toy Story tent, a Toy Story table set, a kitchen, shopping cart and some more random toys from Santa. Plus all the stuff that we all got him.

We had such a good Christmas together. Bruce was even able to get on Skype with us which was awesome! He loved being able to see little Bruce enjoy all of his toys. It was so cute to see them two of them interacting.

I got such awesome presents. I finally got my Pandora charm bracelet and charms. I put pictures up on Facebook.

But I'm exhausted and ready to go to bed.

Christmas rant...

This has been the worst Christmas I have ever had. From being away from Bruce to petty drama. The only thing that made it good was my son. I just don't understand people anymore. I am so frustrated with people and their need to have constant friction. And I am tired of being treated as if I am a child. I am a grown woman and I have NEVER had to depend on anyone to bail me out of anything. I have my own family and we support ourselves and yet I get treated as if I am some naive child. How dare anyone talk to me like that! I will not sit there and silently take it next time. I am just so pissed off that people think that they have the right to butt their nose into my life. If I make a decision then it is my decision to make and if you have a problem with it then you come to me. Don't sneak behind my back and do something that a child would do. UGH! My first Christmas without my husband and I have to deal with this shit. And I'll be damned if I take anything from them again, present or anything else. I had to rip up my Christmas present and that just breaks my heart. But I'm done with it. I'm done with it all. From now on if anyone starts this shit with me I am just going to leave. I will not live my life constantly being bombarded by this stuff. I have a wonderful husband and an amazing son and if you can't be apart of my life without being negative then I don't have to come around anymore.

Well enough of the crap, well never mind, I have one more thing to say. When you become a parent it isn't about you anymore, it is about your child. So, if you want to screw you life up and be a druggie and amount to nothing then that is your issue, but how dare you put your child into this mess. Trash...trash...trash...

Christmas depression...

Well the Christmas events start tomorrow night. And usually I would be overjoyed, but this year it is all just a huge reminder that my husband is so far away. I seem to be holding myself together fairly well, but from time to time I feel like I'm cracking. Today while I was watching Mickey Mouse Clubhouse with my Dad and little man I randomly burst into tears. It was so awkward.

Then to make matters even worse, I watched the finale of 16 and Pregnant and it made me so irritated. I understand that her decision was basically impossible, but she kept jerking those people back and forth and it was just completely unfair. She needed to be an adult and be able to make her mind. That girl couldn't make her mind up about ANYTHING! I'm surprised that she was even able to get dressed without someone telling her what to put on.

Anyways, enough of my sadness and ranting.

I had such an awesome day if I forget about all that other stuff. We went to my Moms and made our holiday wreath for Christmas eve, then we ran some errands at Wal-Mart and Advance Auto. Little man is back to his normal self too. Last week he started to get a little irritable. Then Mom and I took him on a day out on Sunday and that was the cure. He was getting tired of being cooped up. Back in San Diego we usually are out and about more, even if it's just a run to the park for an hour. But here it's different. We have snow and cold weather so the park isn't really an option anymore.

After little man and I came home I went to make the wreath for the Linkous family get together tomorrow night and I did all the exact same stuff that Mom and I did, but for some reason mine was horrible. It was so runny and weird. For some reason all my baking/cooking skills have been completely thrown out of whack since I've been here. I can barely cook as it is, but lately it's just been HORRIBLE!

Well, I'm tired. Off to bed for me!

Christmas blues...

The closer it gets to Christmas the more depressed I get. This is the first holiday season I have spent without Bruce and it's killing me. Not to mention that our four year wedding anniversary is on the 27th and I won't have him with me for the first time. I am usually nuts over Christmas and don't get me wrong, I am loving seeing little man see all the Christmas stuff and things like that, but not having Bruce with us is making it so painful at times. I hate that he is missing all of this.

But I am trying to keep busy, which includes TONS of baking. Tomorrow I am making peanut butter balls, sugar cookies and gingerbread cookies. Then on Wednesday and Thursday I am making my holiday wreath.

And to make matters better, Bruce still hasn't gotten his Christmas care package and I am getting impatient. I put so much special Christmas stuff in there and I am worried it will all be for nothing. I sent it out even earlier than I did his Thanksgiving one. Stupid holiday mail!

I miss my husband...

Bruce Jr. misses his daddy...

We miss our little family...

DAD DO NOT READ THIS!

I just had to blog again about my Twilight evening. Basically it consisted of these key phrases:

"Edward can stake me anytime!"
"Wonder what it's like to have sex with a popsicle?"
"She thought a tanning bed could whiten her teeth."
"I wish I had a popsicle!"

Bloodsuckers and furry beasts!

I am really missing Bruce today. And as dumb as it sounds it's all because of the Twilight Saga. I swear, every time I watch those movies it makes me think of what it was like to fall and be in love. I miss getting the butterflies when he came home and the just being near him. Deployments suck! I love those movies, but they sure do make me sad. (But staring at Jacob Black isn't bad on the eyes)

Anyways, the past few days have been interesting. I experienced my first ice storm and let me tell you, I don't want to go through that again. I hated being stuck at the house! I had to leave twice though. Once to get some teething medicine for little Bruce and once to go get Eclipse for Lisa because it showed up at Wal-Mart. If you bought it at the store it was $22, but if you ordered it site to store it was only $17. So, she ordered it and I had to go get it as soon as I got the email because I was dying! But when I went to get the teething medicine I took one step off the porch and bit it! I feel right on my butt, but I made sure to save my purse. I flung it back onto the porch to keep it from getting wet.

Little man is spending the night with my Mom tonight and I don't know what to do with myself. I feel so lost without him here. I can count on one had how many night I have spent away from him and I don't like it one bit.

I am going to get my hair touched up tomorrow and then I am going to go and get my youngin!

Another snow day!

Today was a memorable day for me and little man. I took him out in he snow for the first time. He didn't know what to do, but he didn't want to let go of my hand. It was so cute! He also had to bring his handy doodle pad with him. We didn't stay out long though because we don't have any gloves. But we are going to hopefully get some so we can build a snowman!

Bruce called right as we were coming in which was hilarious! So here I am trying to talk on the phone and bring in bother little man and I who are covered in snow from the knee down. But after juggling those jobs for a minute or two we were finally snow free! But we for sure have to get some gloves soon. It was so cold!

But there is a huge downside to having the snow, I CAN'T GO GET ANY DR. PEPPER! I am dying without  it. I need it like a vampire needs blood! This is going to be a rough day.

Little man and I had such an amazing morning though. We just played and he did such a good job eating. The past week or so he hasn't wanted to eat much and today he did great. He ate two eggs for breakfast, sweet potatoes and half a peanut butter sandwich for lunch. Whew!  I am so happy that he ate good. I've been worrying so much about that.

I was so ready for naptime today. Even though we had a good morning, I am still feeling a little stuffy and needed to rest. Once he went down I heated up my left over calzone from yesterday and curled up on the couch for an afternoon of Bridezillas and soaps. During commercials I caught up on One Tree Hill online. I haven't watched it since I got here to Tennessee. But I think my favorite part of naptime was just watch the snow fall. It was so beautiful! There has been a steady amount snow falling all morning and afternoon!

The evening was pretty lazy! Just laid around the rest of the day playing.

Snow day!

Well, after almost two longs weeks of no contact with Bruce he finally called us this morning! I was just getting my make up on for my day out with my Daddy and all of a sudden I heard his ringtone "Santa Baby" and I freaked! I answered the phone and ran straight to little Bruce. He was so excited! He just kept running around, he didn't know what to do. He just kept saying Dada and I love you. It was adorable! He has really missed talking to his Daddy.

And to make our day even better it snowed almost all day! We are surely having a white December and I couldn't be happier. We will be in San Diego next Christmas so I am so happy that little man is getting a white Christmas! I can't wait for the day when it is thick enough for little man and I to go out and actually play in it. He just keeps looking out the window watching it and laughing. He is so cute! The picture is from earlier on in the day before it started sticking to the roads.

But even though little man and I are loving the snow, it does have a downside. All of our family has to travel in it. My parents and Bruce's parents and brother. I just hope that everyone is able to get to work safely and home safely. Prayers!

I don't know what got into everyone tonight but we were all acting so goofy. I spent almost an hour stuck under a blanket trying to get little man to come find me and he never did! He kept coming up and smacking me! It was so funny!

I also got to end my day with another phone call from Bruce. It was a perfect ending to a great day.

Pictures and missing Bruce...

So last night we took our second annual Christmas pictures and let me tell you, it's so hard to do without Bruce and with a toddler. But after about a half an hour I got a picture I could use. Whew! I ordered them on the Wal-Mart website and I will be picking them up later today. I just have a few more to address and I'm done!

Lately I have been becoming more and more grateful for the husband I have. When I really think about what I hear about some men it just makes me so thankful for Bruce. He enjoys just about everything I do and even if he doesn't he still does it with me. He loves to watch all the same shows and movies as I do (minus soaps). He loves all the same games and just really gets me. I am so thankful that even though he has to work during the week he still lets me be the one to sleep in on the weekends. I never have to worry about him with little Bruce. He is such an amazing Daddy and loves that little boy more than anything in this world. I couldn't have picked a better man to be my husband or father my children. I love you honey! And I miss you terribly!

Missing him...

I miss my husband. I am so done with this deployment. The holidays are making this so much harder. I can't stand it. It is our first Thanksgiving/Christmas/New Years apart. It's more than I can take at times. And to make it worse we have little man. If it was just me missing him it wouldn't be this bad, but knowing that my son is wondering where his Daddy is just kills me. I want him here to hold me and make me smile. That's all...

Depressing Night...

Last night was a horribly depressing night. I had a good day, but when it got dark I started to hear a dog barking and whining outside. It was to far away for me to know where he was but he barked for hours. And Rogersville doesn't have an animal control so I couldn't report it and everyone was telling me that the cops and stuff wouldn't do anything about it here. And it all just made me think of Bruce. If he were here he would have gone out regardless of the time to find that dog and help it out. No matter what was going on Bruce would always take care of anything like that. I miss having him here so much.

Date Night!

Yesterday was a fun day for us! I got our first set of bills paid for the month and that is always a huge relief to know that you have that taken care of for the rest of the month! Then little man and I just hung out until after naptime and we went to my Mom's house to spend time with her. We ended up going shopping for some Christmas presents for my Doppledanger's kids, Chayla and Ayden. I ended up buying more than I thought though. But I sure do love those kids! Then it was dinner time so we went to get some mexican food and then it was back to her house for the rest of the night. Bruce and I headed home at 7 and we were all alone which is a rarity at night. So, we just played and cuddled for about 2.5 seconds. After he went to bed I got to work on wrapping their presents and it was so funny. Lisa wrapped two things in the time it took me to wrap one! I am so picky about wrapping them. But it's worth it in the end I think. After that I just spent my night catching up on my soaps and then it was off to bed for me.

Today was going to be a L-A-Z-Y day for little man and I, but halfway through the morning I discovered that we were down to our last few wipes (you were right Lisa, are you happy now that you are in here?). So, once little man went down for his nap I got a shower and got ready for the two of us to head to Target. That is the one thing I hate about being here, Target is about an hour away! But we turned it into a mother/son date. I have had to share him so much since being here so going out like this is going was nice.We took care of some much needed errands too. We went to Target and then went through Pal's for dinner! On the way home we called Mark to see if he wanted to meet us at Wal-Mart in town and he said sure. So he met us and we got what we needed done there and Lisa showed up for a few and then we came home and I got to work on baking Bruce's cookies and finishing his care package. I got all that done thankfully and it didn't take me forever! But now it's off to bed for me!