Alone in the city...

Today is a lazy day for us. We got up and I made him an orange and two pancakes for breakfast. Then we just laid around and played. Then I realized that we were down to our last roll of toilet paper so we had to go out and get some. When we got home we vacuumed the house and straightened up because Andrea's best friend flew in today and a messy house when you have company is NOT okay. She is staying until Monday morning.

Oh, today was "Puppy Playdate Day" on NickJr and little man said PUPPY! I freaked! But of course he still will not say mommy.

Naptime came and went and we ended up going out to dinner with Alicia H, Rob, Shaela, Dustin and a friend of theirs. The food wasn't very good, but the place looked like a lot of fun, well it would have been better if Bruce were there. The whole evening really depressed me. It just made me realize how much I am missing having Bruce home. He will be home Monday night, but we don't have much time together before he leaves us again. I just want my husband home. I have been alone since the middle of July and it's just wearing me down. I know that if he were deployed it would be the same situation, but he isn't deployed. He is just stuck on that ship while it is in port here in San Diego. It makes this whole thing even worse knowing that he is 15 minutes away. It's been a pretty sad night for me.

Andrea was able to lift my spirits though by telling me that I'm the best mom that she knows. It really made me feel good. I do give up a lot of "fun" things in order to make sure that little man is put first and he should be. But sometimes it's hard to not be able to go out and party and do all that stuff. I don't have a desire to really do it, but knowing that it's not an option for me makes me wish I could some times. Anyways, maybe all that made more sense to me while I was thinking it and then having to put it all into words completely messed it up. After hearing her say that it put everything into perspective for me that being a mommy is the most important thing that I will ever do and that even though I'm not out being a normal 22 year old, I am going to be the best mommy to Bruce that I can be and that making sure that we are home by 7:30 every night is going to be worth it.

Oh, I took little man into the Disney store to let him walk around before and after dinner and oh my gosh! He loved it! He went straight back to where the stuff animals and stuff were and he didn't know what to do with himself. He kept running back and forth between them and laughing and squealing. It was the most adorable thing! His favorite thing in there was by far Buzz Lightyear. No matter what stuff animal he picked up he always went back to Buzz before he ran off to another one. I loved it. Disney has always been so special to me and seeing him in there and full of such joy was almost to much for me. I was so close to bursting into tears in the middle of the store, but I was able to compose myself. We just had a blast walking around in there.